I hate to admit it but it has proven true.

Maybe the years of living in a self-contained lie,
has manifested itself out of the box.

It's finally going to eat me alive.

So what do you do when you realize that you've given your heart away.
But masked in selfish desires & perceived realities,
You never knew how deep you went & how hard you will fall.

Ever heard of the "Blue Hole"?
Divers are known to have died trying to conquer this wonder.
They dive not knowing how deep they've gone
Till they delve into the abyss of their death.

Alright now. Melodrama doesn't get one anywher.

Time for big smiles, rainbows and butterflies.

If only you knew how much this bugged me.
Selfishly so.

And on another note.
I.NEED.SPACE.
But how do you say this w/o breaking a heart. :(
When all she wants is to be close to you.
After 17 years...
Guess it's kinda hard to go down this road.

Float On.
We will all float on alright...

she spoke at
1:07 AM

What do you do when you suddenly feel stuck.
When you feel the workings of life's mundane creep it's way into your blood & run through your veins?
Destroying any possible tread of inspirations & create a self that devoid of any form of excitement.

What does it mean when you feel life is slipping away, a day at a time.

But then I turn to rollercoaster rides.
You'll never feel more alive!
No control. Surrendered. Suspended.
Loops, drops, turns, "Look Ma! No Hands!"
And in that 1.5 min. You are alive!
But it's only a 1.5.

And then...

What do you do when you suddenly feel stuck?

she spoke at
1:28 PM

It's been a long time.

Haven't felt like writing in months.
But today, someone gave me the perfect words.
"Dream The World"
And i just had to pen it down
because i want to look back again one day,
and remember.

It's been a whirlwind.
Far too many things, they passed me by.
She is gone. She is here.
He is here. He is gone.
Don't really know what to make of it now.
You know when they say that life is full of moments?

While you really want to be stuck in some.
There are others you wish you could just forget. Forever.

Wishes. Hopes. Dreams. Fantasies.
They are so real. You can almost touch it.
Touch. That was all there was to it.

It's funny how darkness is always more tempting than the light.
Too dangerous.

I really miss you.
And trust me, i miss you too.

she spoke at
11:10 PM

Thoughts.
That only you can fill. :)

she spoke at
11:41 PM