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Saturday, June 25, 2005

I'm back! With a bang. Alright. I've gone missing for a couple of weeks now. Figured it's time to blog a lil something. And since i am rarely online, this is the perfect opportunity.

So wad's been up for the hols? Trainings. Work. ATC. Injuries. Kukup. Trainings. Injuries. Work. Keming Primary School Camp (my virgin camp as a cynovate instructor *sniffles*) Loss of voice. Work. Well-deserved break from everything. Trainings. Work. Heh. Yup. My life is so predictable.

Kukup was really nothing but fun. Kelongs were terrorized and mangrove swamps became our photo studios. Kudos to all the camera whores with camera-dar. Funny how when the word "camera" echoes down the mangroves, everyone would embark on a mad-rush to be inside the picture. Tsk tsk. Haha. Aside to those...it was pig-out, pig-out and more pig-out sessions!!! Not to mention our fantastic night of fireworks display. *beams* a really cool time with u guys!!! Let's do it again sometime!!! Next time...we'll have more to contribute to the fireworks fund ya? Heh.

Alrighty. Besides that...as some of you guys might know, i was working at a primary school adventure camp as an instructor or 'mother hen' as they call it. So basically, my duties was as literal as the latter. I had to be a 'mom' (or 'dad' HAHAHA) to 15 'energizer bunnies'. Those were the days of non-stop screaming and running around trying to keep them all in check. But you know...its amazing how working with kids can bring so much joy and fufilment into your life. Its always good to hear compliments from people...but when they come from kids...its really really different. In fact, there were a few occasions where i was just so overwhelmed. Imagine hearing them say things like "she made me try things that i was afraid of", "she taught us many new things". One of them even told me "time flies very fast when we're having fun". And the most heartfelt of them all was a kid who asked if i was going to do anymore camps. I told him that perhaps in secondary school he might bump into me should he be lucky. And the next day he wrote in my notebook that he hopes to see me during his secondary school camp. Okie. So maybe they will forget eventually. But this experience will most likely be in their minds and hopefully...i was part of that experience. *smiles*

From the first day of camp where getting the guys and girls to hold hands was more chaotic than the long hello kitty queues at Macs, its such a grand feeling to see them all more integrated at the end of camp. Aside to that, its so heartfelt to know that all of them remembered what you taught them about courage, teamwork, selflessness and most importantly, care. They probably don't have to bring home everything the learnt at camp but as long as they brought back ONE single lesson, it is a job well done. Honestly, this was such an amazing experience. Not to mention that i am so impressed and in love with my cheer i/c (e big sized bespectacled one) and my best camper (e one in orange!!!) Heh. He's such an amazing young boy. Oh i could go on. A potential leader, motivator who's mature, selfless, thoughful, sensitive, enthusiatic, disciplined (he's in wushu!!!) and adorably cute! What more can i say? *beams*



My best camper (in orange!!!). He says he doesn't like to smile cuz he doesn't look nice. Who says so? Heh.



3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers for cynovate!!!

I am gg to zzz.

she spoke at
12:30 AM

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Okie...the post title has absolutely nothing to do with wad i am about to say next. But *stares at ice pack on shoulder* since i am now icing my shoulder...that stoopid song just popped into mind. Hohoho.

Been thinking...My life actually halted after february/march. Very sad. But true. Friends i have not seen for months i have not seen yet. Friends i am suppose to go out with i have not. Wad is wrong with everything? Friends i have been thinking about but have not e-mailed/called/sms. Perhaps a neglect on my part i have to say. Time to put more actions than thoughts into everything. Can't just sit ard waitin for things to happen can i? Sorry to those whom i haven't seen in ages. People whom i have wanted to see and meet up with for the longest time. I hope that all will come true and be made a more regular thing than just a one off. Okie. No point hoping. Shall start to do so. ^_^ Any takers? Heh. (Have to work ard the damn job tho'...sorry guys...workin to pay off debts that i have owed for too long...)

Hoping to meet my friends.
Time to fufil all the supposed dates.
Need to start making time for people.
Gotta think about wad the body is saying.


Sometimes you just wake up on the wrong side of the bed.
Today i did.
- 2 hrs late for work with 11 missed calls (i think)
- Shoulder hurts
- Not enough zzz
- Stood the whole day
- PMS (i think...)
- Phoneline got cut off (bleh)

Good stuff.
Today it happened.
- Results. (Woot for philo!!!)
- Measly $75 pay
- Shoulder got better (still icing!!!)

- Supper (considered today? Since this entry was meant for June 1st...haha)
- Finally spoke to someone *winks*
- Friends msg-ing to meet up
- Friend coming to my place to eat even after wad happened the last time. (hugs)

It's odd how i have ventured into a place i've so often fear to tread. And this time. I am less afraid. Time to just savour the moments and learn to appreciate them. It was really good to finally talk to u about it. Been waiting for quite awhile to do so actually. Thanx for gg thru it all with me. Two brains are better than one. Of course i feel bad blabbering to u in ur half-awake state. But thanx nonetheless. U rock!!!

In the meantime...
Dreamland. Here i come!!!

she spoke at
2:00 AM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

I am back.

Haven't been updated since i started work. So wad has the past weeks been like? KL (disappointing...). Work. Dim Sum (not that nice afterall...but shalln't complain...). NUH (Hurray KIM!!!). zZz-overs (both of which i fell zzz...sorry...). Star Wars ("To call Hayden's acting wooden is an insult to all puppets in the world" Eh kim...whussup lah?) Sunrise (almost there...). Breakfasts (i never have breakfasts mind u...). Knee-scare (wasted $50 on an x-ray!!! Stoopid doctor!!! Whussup with the accdent???!!!). Sad over Carrie Underwood's victory over Bo Bice. Happy over Kelly's victory over that bitchy woman from 'The Apprentice'. Paint-a-home(a room in 4 hrs k!!! *hugs* to my other half). ESC dinner (juicy juicy!!!). Trainings (more injuries sustained *frowns*). Supper (another impulsive decision). More work...BLEH.

Results out tmr but i can't get them. Those who know why will know why. Oopz. Dun really wanna find out either. Tsk tsk. Go ahead and be in denial kos...

And i guess she's right. It was fatigue talkin that night. But that was only partial. I am sorry for wad i did. I really feel very bad after. It sucks to know that such 'density' can exist. Sometimes u just can't help blamin urself. Yet again. U know that action speaks louder than words. But you are really right. I am weak these days. Not a good thing i would think. *shrugs*

A guide to a great end to a night:
1) Get a bottle of vanilla coke
2) Play some good music (Howie Day's "Collide")
3) Sit at the basketball court
4) Watch the stars and the moon
5) Count the number of households with lights on in unearthly hours
6) Hum to self
7) Think
8) Take deep breaths
9) Enjoy the cool breeze
10) Revel in the calming effect of the natural smell of the night
11) Pick up bag and take a slow walk home
12) Sleep

^_^

she spoke at
3:00 AM