A Perfected World

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Well i'd like to take you as i find you
Imagine our clothes are on the floor
Feel my carass so soft and gentle
So delicate you cry for more
But you know baby
You know baby does it right
And you know baby does it right
Universe inside of your heart
You gotta let me know
So you can be free baby
You wanted it so much and now that its over
You don't know what you want
Put time in a capsule
Two minds consensual
Entwined to perfection
If we could...
Cuddle up close
Lay on my chest now
Listen my heartbeat's coming down
If you get tired you close your eyes now
When you wake up i won'y be found
'Cause i know baby
I know you're the nervous kind
With so much going on in your mind
But let me tell you that this time
I'm gonna make you mine
(I won't let you go)
'Cause i know that this time
I'm gonna make sure i look out for me
'Cause you know baby
Well you know baby does it right
And you know baby does it right
You will only end up lost in loneliness
And wake up with the words already on your lips
So i'll let you go, baby
So i'll let you go...

The moon is gorgeous tonight.

she spoke at
1:18 AM

Sunday, April 24, 2005

I am procratinating again. And first paper begins *drum rolls* tmr! This is the moment that i've been waiting for the whole semester cuz this semester has been sooooooo excruciating...its better to get it over and done with even if it means dying in the exam hall with my brain filled with nothing but empty space and coconut juice. *bloop bloop*

And as my post title clearly indicates...here goes...
- Spend more time with the phreaks (no more 'hey stranger)
- Visit ah ma at least once a week
- Movie marathon and stayovers (as pushed back sooooo far liaoz)
- Work
- Settle debts (a lost bet and outstanding bday prezzies >_<)
- Go for windsurfing course
- Spending time with family
- Gym trainings twice a week (once at the very least)
- Paint a Home
- Train damn hard for National Champs
- Regular physio for ATC (June 12!!!)
- Start running
- My artwork
- Food outing (dim sum/chomp chomp/tom yam/bak kut teh)
- Kukup!!! Bong!!! KL!!! (i hope)
- Catch up with JC friends
- Wild Wild Wet (sorry gabby!!!)
- Go for THAT kayaking expedition (hope it pulls through)
- Finishing up on novels and sandman comics
- Mambo night with waveryders and whoever else we decide to jio
- Night cable car ride

Hmm...i wonder what i missed out. I'm sure i missed out something. Nevermind. I can always update it again. Haha. Brain's not working too well now. Stressed. Alright. Nuff time wasted. Back to books!!!

Walking a fine line between this and that
When all else fails and you lose sight of faith
Know that there is always hope
Just seek and you will find
Don't give up on you
For no one else has ever did

I am slacking.

she spoke at
7:01 PM

*swoons* Exams stress has made me a cheesy romantic. Been listenin' to cheesy love songs over and over again. More more more!!! *swoons*

If you stood in front of the mirror and held up 11 roses. You'll see 12 of the most beautiful things in the world

One more day before my first paper. Bleh. Have given up on philo already. It is really close to impossible to comprehend. Not to mention a hassle to read survive even one dialogue. Man...can't athenians get str8 to the point? At least Descartes was slightly easier to understand. Bleh. I am just throwin' philo outta the window. *looks at a pile of notes flyin' out of window* I wish...

If a star falls everytime i think about you. The sky will soon be empty.

Back to more deviance now. Woot! Wad a day...

Be the heart that i know will be the one that beats for me.

Ariel: Hope u were pleasantly surprised. Heh. Happy 21st again!!! And *ahem* hope u'll use the prezzies wisely...*winks*

I am hopeless. *swoons*
In an AWWWWW-some mood.

she spoke at
12:46 AM

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

This is such a wierd sensation. I am stressed out cuz i have like 4 and 1/2 days left to study for 2 papers. But yet strangely at ease. Hmmm. No chance to feel even mildly panicky. Urgh. I am so gonna regret this on sunday night. Tsk tsk.

This is the result of a burnt-out.

But kudos to www.hollywoodrecords.com for providing me with non-stop Ingram Hill songs!!! Where on earth can u find full preview of the entire album? So generous! Love it love it love it! Anywayz...do check out Z*TRIP and the song called "Walking Dead". Not bad. But i could be bias since it features Chester from LP. Heh. Sigh. Why must all of their CDs be so FRIKKEN expensive? And someone just got BB's album. Grr...still dare msg me to tell me. Grr. Ok...anal-ness alert. I MUST shut up. And go back to studying. Bloggin' is just an excuse to procrastinate. (sorry Al!)

Back to being a pseudo-mugger.

she spoke at
11:58 PM

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

*wails* My computer crashed again. Sigh. Two in month. What in the world. M official deprived!!! No more MSN. No more bloggin'. No more visitin' of silly websites. No more no more. Until i get it fixed that is. Boo hoo.

On the other hand...m pretty glad that everything (assignments) are all over. Left with only me damn learning reports to do. Lizard ROCKS!!! Heh. Presentation went well. She was so nice!!! "They always very pro one. Look at the tag (part of our final project design product) she's wearing." and guess what she said when i met her outside the printing room? "You guys did good too! We gave you very high marks." No worries girls..we did too!!! Screw biasness. *winks* Heh. N that guy whom i thought was cute did a pretty impressive project as well.

Ooh...and guess wad else? I got a book specially dedicated to me!!! ^_^ Thanx wil and alex. *beams* it was really sweet of u guys. N the final product looked good!!! So much effort put in lah! Screw biasness as well. Heh.

Oh and guess wad else else? Went for physio today only to realize that my appointment was actually tmr. Yikes. Thank God Calvin decided to be nice and saw me today. Heh. Boy. Today was the worse session ever. My knees were shakin' so terribly when i was doin' my leg press. Sigh. So weak. Told Calvin that i was gonna train for ATC and he said that is really quite adventurous. He said he'd try to get me ready for it but no guarantees. But seriously. M gonna go anyway. Lol. Just pray that my knees wouldn't fail on me. Bleh.

Gonna really start muggin' now. 5 days to study for 2 papers and another 2 days to study for one more. Sigh. Wad a life. Goodbye ppl. M gonna go MIA for a few days now.

Shorty: Hey babe...take care!!! Hope u're feelin' better now. Dun call me no stranger lah. Heh. Meet up soon!!!
Ailina: Hope u're still happy shoppin' in Cambodia!!!

Pseudo-mugger at work.

she spoke at
2:04 PM

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Here i am bloggin' when m suppose to do designing work. *very very stressed* And i guess i'd prolly not continue the next level of this mod. Design is soooo not my forte. *shrugs* Maybe its just the pressure that is comin from all over the place. Let's just say i thought i could but i was wrong. Yet again...maybe its just me. So useless. Well...life gets better from here on. So i shalln't worry. But i'd really have to thank someone for always cooking up great ideas every single time. Too dependent on u liaoz.

Nuff of self=wallowing. Eveyone...guess what? 'CHAO AH BENG' was sitting like 2 seats away from me in the computer lab today!!! Yipee!!! He's as cute in real life as he is on screen. Kim and Candice...wasted you guys weren't here! In case you guys are still wondering...he's non other than ELVIN NG - that guy who's acting in that 9 pm NKF show airing on Ch8 every weekday. Such a tragic hero. Can't believe that he 'died' today. *sniffs* Was juz complaining to mom yst that i never got to see him in NUS (he's a FASS undergrad) and there he was...2 goddamn seats away! So what if i'm a lil starstruck...and kim (closes your mouth) he is a LIT major! *nudge*

Anyway...the past few days were so fun!!!

SENTOSA Study Trip
Went to Sentosa on tues on the pretext of studying. You heard me. S.E.N.T.O.S.A. Yes. I've heard enough of the "Go WHERE and study?" reaction. Yup. Haha. Of course we didn't get any done, considering the fact that we were having so much fun playing frisbee in the sea, munching on chips topped with salsa and black pepper chicken, tanning in the sun, suan-ing kim and stirring shit. Lol. But Joel, Kim and i did try cuz we proceeded to harbourfront after spending the whole noon in Sentosa to study...which of course we failed miserably. Haha. And to top it all up, Kim and i went back to school for polo training...only to be faced with the wrath of the lightning. Yikes! The whole sky was flashing non-stop and we had to make a decision whether or not it was feasible to stay despite the constipated weather. Thankfully, the both of us (and Belle) made the right one and stayed on!!! Cuz you know what? It didn't rain in the end!!! Woot!!! Polo for all!!!

Night of the CUSS-ers
Yeah...then came wed night. Haha. 3 hopeless bummers had a test on thurs so the 3 hopeless bummer decided to stay over in school to study. 1 hopeless bummer was not so hopeless afterall cuz he was actually studyin. But 2 other hopeless bummers went ard chatting with 2 other bummers, shared crappy jokes with balalabingbang and everyone else, got into the circle of magic, ate ice cream (bailey's!!!), had a 'teh' accident, laughed till our abs hurt, talk cock sing song-ed. Okie. Basically everything but study. Then it was 12 am. 2 hopeless bummers hardly touched their textbooks. So the 2 hopeless bummer started to mug with the 1 not so hopeless bummer. Lol. I just realise that the 3 hopeless bummer gets really vulgar and cranky at night - cuz all 3 of them were singing along to cheesy love songs and funky techno music, throwing chocolates into each others mouth, suan-ing 1 hopeless bummer, and of course CUSSING. So 2 hopeless bummers learnt a looooonnnnng chain of bad words from 1 hopeless bummer and couldn't stop using it. Here goes: "F*** Wank Bugger Shittin' Arse-headed Hole". Woot! We rock! And so the night passed and 2 hopeless bummers ended up zzzing on the tables at YIH canteen. Unglam. But who gives a shit when you're half dead.

The day i witness a miracle
How lucky is it to get on the same bus twice in a day - in a span of 1/2 hr? Anyway...2 blur sotongs were on 95 on their way to Bouna Vista. Just when they were about to get off the bus, they realised that both their textbooks were missing. So the 2 sotongs decided to go back to school. Sotong 1 remembered leaving hers in the SOC toilet but the other sotong wasn't sure. True enough...only 1 book was found in the toilet. So the other sotong was upset and went on a chocoalte therapy. 2 sotongs then went back to the bus stop and waited for the next 95 to take them to Bouna Vista. This is when it all happen. It was the exact same bus that the 2 sotongs boarded that very morning. And guess what? Sotong 2 found her book!!! It was wedge at the side of the seat. No wonder both sotongs didn't realise it dropped. Cuz it didn't fall onto the floor but got stuck instead. *applause* So amazing how chains of events can lead to such a miracle. The timing was sooooo perfect. If the 2 sotongs hadn't gone to the lecture theatre to look for the missing book or went to the co-op to get chocolate therapy, or gone to the canteen to whine to 2 friends of sotongs...there wouldn't have been a chance at boarding the same bus again. WOW. So 2 sotongs got their books back! Yay! It was so hilarious cuz the 2 sotongs were so happy and overwhelmed that they started to hyperventilate and let out high-pitched squeals - it was so dramatic that the bus driver stopped in the middle of the road, turned around and asked if we were ok. Lol. Of course we were!!! Lucky lucky lucky.

Then 2 sotongs decided to go get 4-D. Hohoho. *crosses fingers and toes* But the most embarassing thing was that both sotongs didn't know how to buy - so had to get some help from the uncles and aunties who were damn pro. Not to mention that we got somewhat laughed at by the lady at the counter. Bleh. But in the end 2 sotongs managed to get the ticket! And soon after...both sotongs saw the ONLY pink cab in singapore drive past. What great luck right? *hugs* to sotong 2 for sharing it with me. Heh. Our 1st miracle together!!!

And...i just got back not too long ago from Johnny's place. BBQ!!! Food was really good!!! Yum. Particularly enjoyed the lasagne (made by mich's bf') Lol. Eh Candice...Nick really cmi. Worried about dirt in his nails??? And soiled underpants??? Sheesh. But that was pretty funny. Took so many silly pix and vids. Maybe i shall post it up when i get my hands on it. Banana. Banana. Banana. Muaks!!!

M bummed.

she spoke at
1:00 PM

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Early this morning...

Mom: (anxiously) Girl ah...get up now and wash the toilet!!! There are tiny black worms crawling around!!!
Me: (thinks to self) Must be some spin story to wake me up
Me: (mumbles) What worms?
Mom: (still anxious) Stop sleeping and go wash your toilet NOW!!!
Me: (gets up reluctantly and walks to the toilet only to realise that mom wasn't lying...)

And so i armed myself with the water hose and toilet brush and began to scrub the floor fervently. Gross i tell you. The worms were small, black and curly!!! God knows where they came from. Seriously i've survived longer without washing my loo and this has NEVER happened!!! Sheesh. Just the other day my kitchen bin was infested with tiny red ants cuz a dead lizard was decomposing around that area. And i had to bravely clean up the mess. *shudder* Ants are popping up like everywhere and not to mention that there is a hoard of flying ants at the lift landing just outside my house. What is this? A bug parade? *sniffles* I don't like creepy crawlies!!!

Okie...that was quite an episode. Anyway...i amaze myself. Just finish editing a 5000 words essay in one breathe. Heh. See...nothing is impossible when you focus kossy. Tsk tsk. More work done and more work to come. When will all these end? Soon lah soon. Heh. Everyone...HANG IN THERE!!!

Dad and mom are dragging me to church in a few hours time. *scratches head* Well...at least i get to eat at that famous Bak Kut Teh store again!!! Woot!!!

Lizard: Was just thinking about what we said just now. Heh. Put up a good defence k? Only let an attacker through when i say okie okie? Hohoho. Then he/she will have to face a one on one with the keeper *winks* Okie...m just crapping.
Ailina: Thanx babe...i got it liaoz. Machaim treasure hunt. LOL.
Candice: You are damn high and funny la!!! *prances ard*
Kim: You are NOT SHY!!! *does indian dance*
Al: You owe me a car ride around Singapore!!!
Shorty: I miss you!!!
Jem: Thanx!!! *beams*
HL: Thanx for the forms!!! *grins*
Chris: Jia you jia you!!! (please rest eh?)
Fries: I took my medicine liaoz!!! *nods*

I am HIGH.
(a BIG thank you to ALL my late night MSN and essay-rushing party *winks* the many many of you...)

she spoke at
4:53 AM

Saturday, April 09, 2005

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy
I wish you were here
I lay my head into the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy with holes punched in it
I'm counting UFO's
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy...happy
I wish you were here
The world's a roller coaster and I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care but my hands are busy in the air

Don't ask cuz i dunno who i wish to be here. I wish i did. Someone. Not anyone.

So here we are...2 and 1/2 weeks before the start of the exams. Which means...3 and 1/2 more weeks before the beginning of a 3 MONTHS break!!! See...life ain't that bad if you look at only the good stuff eh?

Just went for a medical checkup today and its official. I am 1.66cm. Woot! 2cm shy of my ideal. *stretch neck* Was trying to do the universe article yesterday only to fall zzz like 5 times in a span of 7 hours. -_- How in the world do you do it Kim? Don't you feel worse after zzzing and waking non-stop?

For all the stressed out kids...here's something to help you all destress. Yup. Another funny vid courtesy of ME!!! Hahaha. Can't believe how many silly vids i've watched this week. Tis the power of the internet. It makes you surf stupid stuff when you are suppose to be doin work! Tsk tsk. But this is really pretty good. Go see! http://www.big-boys.com/articles/torn.html and for those interested in puzzle games...check out www.takagism.net and play crimson, virdinan room and blue chamber!!! Heh. But it takes time...and brain juice. There...you have been warned.

Ailina: BON VOYAGE!!! Have fun and take more pix eh? *hugs*
Candice: Thank you so so so much. You sounded quite bad on the phone today. Take care ok?
Everyone: Weather is bad *coughs* please take care...exams' looming ahead. Jia you!

When life takes a tow on you.
You just can't help but sink with it.

I am worn.

she spoke at
3:45 AM

Monday, April 04, 2005

人生总有许多的巧合，
两条平行线也可能会有交会的一天。
但是，
人生总有许多的意外，
握在手里的风筝也会突然断了线。

There comes a time where we all fall into a phase of emptiness and obscurity. This is one of them. I love nights like these. The sweet smell of rain and damp grass, the soft brush of the gentle wind, and the stillness of the night. Perfect time to be taking a long stroll for nothing is better than to embrace the beauty of silence.

Anyway...it might come as a surprise that i am actually writing chinese in my blog. (hey girl...i went to d/l the chinese word processor. *smiles* thanx anyway!) But whatever it is that i wrote...i really find meaningful. Tis the bittersweet of life in motion.

I can't fathom why but i'm rather needy recently. Maybe it just my expectations. But small lil things seem to just rub me the wrong way. I like this feeling NOT. Hopefully it'll pass. I guess everyone is entitled to being so some of the time ain't it?

I feel pathetic.

she spoke at
11:13 PM

I don't know what I'm feeling.
It's not right, it can't be.
I try to find someone to blame.
But maybe, maybe it's just me.

~'Maybe it's me' - Ingram Hill~

I am WIDE awake and it is now almost 6 am. School starts in about a few hours. Bleh. Suppose to have woken up at 12.30 but being the PIG that i am. I zzzed till 2 plus. Heh. Very good. Was having dinner at like 3 in the morning before starting to doodle for some design project that i have. What a life! Anyway do check out the band Ingram Hill. My next obessession after Breaking Benjamin, whose CD i have discovered to be a frikken $41!!! -_-

Played against the national team again today (girl on extreme top left - HOT!!! Girl in center - quite HOT!!! I think Lizard and Chad looks damn cute in this pix. And cool butch looks better without specs. *nudges kim*) the last training for polo before we break for exams. *sniffs* Sadly...all the blackstomers are graduating. Kai was telling me that he and Kuan Ho were talking about their memories in the last 4 years. Sigh. Kinda sad come to think of it. And WaveRyders is no going to become either only 'wave' or 'ryders' soon since both bee and fries are graduating too. *wails* Sigh. This is what they mean when they say 'everything is ephermeral' Too bad for us...that is the way things are. *shrugs*

It felt good to finally catch up with an old friend. It's been so long. But i was happy. :)

Shall retreat to my peaceful slumber.

she spoke at
5:47 AM

Friday, April 01, 2005

The worse thing in the world is indeed when you think no one cares.
But even so when people think you don't.

Progress in SLOW. M trying to finish my philo essay tonight. Which is almost entirely impossible. Thanx to procrastination. URGH!!! Screw you!!!

This is meaningless. Currently in NO mood to do anything nor say anything to anyone.
Screw you!!!

Bleh.

she spoke at
12:04 AM