It's one thing to miss someone who's not around.
But what does it mean when you miss someone who has never left?

Intrigued.

"Let me apologize to begin with,
Let me apologize for what I’m about to say,
But trying to be someone else was harder than it seemed,
But somehow I got caught up in between." ~ In Between
You feel a little useless, hopeless, worthless.
You know it's dumb.
But you can't help it.

And then you are thankful for having found great colleagues,
who have become personal friends & sistas!
(yes. i am now an official mmb of the 'non-airhead' club)
It's good knowing that they get you through the day,
consider how you whine and complain half the time.
You know who you are. :)
And the people whom you know are always around.
Blessed-ness.

And you.
You still make me smile.

she spoke at
3:23 PM

*and you stare at the computer smiling*

Was just reading 'other-half's' blog and such a simple thing made me smile.
I really do miss the times where we were always bumming around in YIH.
Hahaha. And i miss surprising you with salmon sashimi when you were slogging away.
Still remember the days where Lao ge, you and i wanted to buy over YIH?
Crazy thoughts that one.

And then i realise that the Rovers family is really one whom i don't often see
But will always hold dear.
Nanny, Pa, Wan family, Lin Peizhen, Joel, Suji, Andy among the many...
No matter where you are, what you do, the mountains will always wait for you

And then there's also the awesome polo family.
My pads. My inspiration. My team.
I miss Team NUS!!!
And now that there's Red Tide ladies / lao laos / aunties.
There yet another reason to live again! :)
And then i sappily realise that i really wanna dedicate a goal to YOU.
(and wink in your general direction)

I miss NUS. I miss the lectures (being late like ALL the time).
I miss the Arts Canteen and the Western food in Biz Canteen.
I miss KR (yes #1...). I miss TH (yes DP...). I miss my coursemates.
I miss Strawberry Milkshake. I miss Sociology. I miss AS7.
I miss the NUS pool. I miss YIH. I miss Munchie Monkey.
I miss training camps. I miss adventure racing. I miss Central Lib.

Although i haven't seen most of you guys in a long time
Bboomers was the best thing that ever happened in JC.

And then there's my buds of a decade.
You guys...
There's no need for anymore words.
Just heartfelt appreciation.
For always being there. No matter how far you are.

That's all for my moment.
Back to reality.

And you make me smile.

she spoke at
10:37 AM

You know that you can be a handful sometimes.
And she has to deal with all that unjustified sillyness.
You know she dries all your tears (those w/o rhyme or reason)
And she doesn't say a word.
You know that you are always all over the place.
And she waits with unfathomable patience.
You know that she deserves everything in the world.
And she simply says you deserve her.
You know she is tired.
Yet she tries her best to give you every waking minute.
You know your thoughts are unrendered.
she doesn't question them but silently assures you.

But most of all you know that you are thankful.
Because she's the greatest gift of all.

*feeling a little sappy*

she spoke at
5:15 PM

she spoke at
1:28 PM

And some firsts aren't very nice at all.
But what matters most is not the during but the after.

"Love one's daughter
Allow me that
And I can't let go of your hand"
~Cold Water by Damien Rice~

It's a great feeling to be back at training.
People often ask "why do you train so hard when you can be resting"
Yes. It's not easy burning wkends after wkends.
But it's hard to explain the feeling.
Unless of course you are in the team itself.
At the end of it all, you tell yourself it is so worth the while.
And all the aches are nothing.
Because it that few hours, you are in a different place.
Along side the familiar faces you don't often see but are always around.
Then every week you look forward to a sunday.
Just simply because.

You fall asleep to the smell of chlorine.
And a voice on the other line.

she spoke at
9:13 PM

a self-proclaimed one that is.



So 2 girls
(not that we have too much time on our hands - serious!)
set out on a day of giving out free hugs.
(with surprising results - VyVy u DIE!)
GM was all giggly when she saw us,
and very uninhibitedly hugged us both.
Awwww.
Boss was pretty nice about it as well.
Someone even asked "can i have more hugs?"



There you go.
My very BIG-hearted colleague. Kudos!

Makes your heart warm doesn't it?
Check out the following links for more videos on FREE HUGS!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5EXGPa-Q3I
I heard it started in Aussie & i know there are those few in SG.
You guys are awesome!

And all that in a HUG day's work.



*HUGS* to everyone in need of one. :)

she spoke at
7:00 PM

It's probably one of those moments when you find yourself drifting
to what keeps your feet on the ground
and you end up wandering and feeling a little disconcerted
and you're left with a helpless feeling
cause you dont know the root of it
and it's hard to get rid of a problem
when you dont even understand the source in the first place

Brilliantly put my friend.
And questions well asked.

is daydreaming a sign of a discontented life?
is numbness a sign of acceptance, or resignation?
is listlessness the warning you've been hearing all along?
and the more you search, the more lost you become.
and for too many split seconds, you dont know who you are anymore.

Oops. My post has become a post about yours.
But your words still inspire me deeply.

Today is that kind of day.
where everything is in splotches of gray.
Why has the sun gone into hiding?

And moments of 'wherefore art thou' looms across the room.

Utterly & Completely.
Just can't help loving the way it sounds.
Such a sucker for the beauty of words.
Imagine the world without.
Can't.

And you revel in the moment of silences and shallow breaths.
Thoughts in process (too much).

she spoke at
12:12 PM

She says they are the reason for her existence.
Have you ever thought about what's yours?

You can't help but ponder over the realities of somethings.
Things that are seemingly insignificant & non-existential anymore.
Seemingly.
Always an irony of the human condition.
Everything is 'seeming'.
Nothing is concrete.
Not your thoughts,
and not mine.

Life is a learning experience
and nothing teaches better than a broken heart
U'll never learn how to deal with a broken heart if you don't get one,
it's a blessing i think, just lucky.

So i quote a self-proclaimed 'battle-scarred auntie'.
And i couldn't agree more.
You think?

And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in gray,
And the sun will set for you.

she spoke at
5:13 PM