Had our precamp today. *stress* Hehe. Found out that Huiqin's the OGL of Sphiredrake. Greg and my group. Cool name huh? And guess what? Our group colour is orange. Woo Hoo.

M sitting on Lizard's bed typing away now. Uh huh. Bunking over at her place today cuz we're gonna have precamp again tmr and this time at Ubin. So yeah. And i did say that i would stay over last last week. *sniffs* But we didn't do our walk on the beach as we had intended to. Thankfully we managed to grab a bite at Lagoon. BUT...we missed the last bus so had to walk all the way back from Bedok interchange. Haha. It was a nice walk aside to me jumping all over whenever Lizard says the "C" word. Yes. You got it alright. That small lil creepy crawling that i absolutely detest. Ooh and she got raspberry cheesecake from secret recipe as well. Yummy. Was at her work place for awhile. *winks* Well well...Lizard decided to be nice today and didn't tell me that i actually walk past a cemetary on my way to meet her. Thanx k? She said that i would have ran all the way if i had known. Haha. Yup. I might. Or i could have been too tired to even care. I am truly exhausted. Accumulative i guess. I wanna take a breather.

Anyway...today was quite an impromptu thing to stay over. Hopefully i'll be able to stay over again eh? The next time with a beach walk.

I am numb.

she spoke at
1:59 AM

Hecate


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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*A background of Hecate*
Hecate was believed by some to be descended from the Titans. A Greek goddess with two quite separate aspects, in the day she was suppose to have a benign influence on farming but during the hours of darkness she was interested in witchcraft, ghosts and tombs. In many ways similiar to the vegetation goddess Demeter. Hecate uncomfortably combined fertility with death as a power of the Earth. The witch Medea, Jason's rejected Colchian princess, used to invoke Hecate in her magic arts. Hecate is usually portrayed with three faces. the Athenians were particularly respectful towards her, and once a month they place offerings of food at crossroads, where her influence was said to be felt.

Haha...it appears that quite a few of my friends has taken this quiz so i decided to give it a go as well. *ponders* mysterious and dark? Am i? And she sounds schizo...

I have sore eyes.

she spoke at
11:14 PM

When was the last time that you did something for the first time? Yesterday. At approximately 5.30pm, the Padang came into full view. It was unreal. I recall the fact that they were gonna perform in KL and at that time i was crazy enough to have thought of flying down there just to catch a glimpse of them. Fortunately, they came. And there i was, admist the queue, waiting for the moment to arrive. If you guys have no idea who i am talking about, you guys are slow man. Linkin Park dammit!!! Live. In the flesh. I can hereby annouce that they were, are and will be the freakin' coolest band alive. Sheesh. It was mindblowing man. Speechless. Not for the much due effort screaming non stop for and hour and a half at the very least. A total body workout. I was completely drenched. Talk about the coolest band huh? What an irony. Ha!

I lived my dream.

The entire stage up was so like the "Faint" MTV. Bright yellow lights, jumping (sticky) audiences, sadly no throwing around of bodies. Yeah. And guess what? They even played "Step Up". For LP fans, i am sure this is a treat cuz this is sorta an unreleased track. Damn it was good. You'ld be surprised at how good they sound live. I paritcularly liked "Papercut". Tho i wished that i was nearer to the stage (i should've came to queue ealier), it was still good. I mean it's cool enough to know that they are there and you are there. Well and they clouldn't have ended with a better track..."One Step Closer" Why? Cuz it was the song that introduced me to the band. The one that converted me.

I lived my dream.

Everything was freaking fantabulous except for the long wait for them to start playing. Apparantly, they had to meet their fans from LP underground. I knew i should've joined that club a long time ago. Dammit. I should have never hesistated. Or procristinated for that matter. So now, i am adamant of making myself an official LP underground memeber. Soon enough. And so their opening act, this korean band "PIA" started playing almost half their albums, i think at least 7 songs man. They were pretty damn good for an Asian band i can tell you. But the crowd started to get impatient and some even chanted "Linkin F***". Rude buggers. Then they went on to play some rock cd and we had to wait till about 9.30 was it, before they made their first appearance. So it was only an hour and bout 45mins of LP. But it was worth the wait. Why? You tell me...

I lived my dream.

Seeing LP live was like a step away from reality. In that period, i thought of nothing but the band. Here's a question...Ever had a dream that was so real, you wake up wondering if it really happened? This was it. It was surreal. Damn. After being so busy throughout this entire hols, i just lost myself in the music. All that was left was the music and the 6 crazy rockers on stage. Despite the long wait and those asshole who were smoking despite the lack of oxygen amongst the crowd. We need air dammit! Everything was worth it. And props to mel's sis for gettin me the autographs of Joe and Phoenix. You guys rock!!! And for the rest of the band...you guys said it all during the concert. Unreal. Joe was cute. With his black glasses and turntables. Mike was in a black tee. Chester in white. Rob behind the drums (can't see), Phoenix (can't see either) and Brad, the one with the Ethan (survivor 3: Africa winner) wannabe hairdo (which sux!) What else man...For those who missed it, you guys missed a helluva performance and for all those who went. You guys...WOW...i have never sweat so much during a concert before. So much so that Mel and i had to turn our tanks into mid drifs. *lol* But it was cool. Amazing how the lyrics just flew outta our mouths. I mean it has been quite awhile since i looked at their lyrics or listened to them but the words were just at the tip of your tongue. Awesome man. Nothing but screams and more screams!!! Thank you so so so much for making my hols worth it's work. And for everything else. *thumbs up* *waves madly* and *screams into nothingness*

I am high on adrenalin.

she spoke at
11:24 PM

"There is no such thing as eternal friends or foes. A friendship is as good as it lasts." - 15

In this lifetime, there is never one person that you can keep forever. Pretty darn obvious huh? Seriously, i guess this applies to all of the varied complexity of human life. Does it not? "Holding on to a person you already lost would not make him come back. You would only make yourself lose him again." I think memories are the only thing that is forever, well, or at least in the closest proximity to that if you can attest to that of course. Physicality is temporal. So perhaps the constant reminder of your loss would only enhance the pain caused by that insatiable thirst for the physical. Reason? It was the point of origin for the memories. That is why 'letting go' is seemingly the two most aching word in the dictionary of love. I said aching. Not neccessarily despair, nor hurt, nor pain, even happiness. The heart might be strong but the will is weak, especially when it's regarding the most irrational of all irrationalities, love. We can't wield control, neither can we control or wills. So basically, no one said it was easy to let go. But i shall quote Adidas on this...

"Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion. It's a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing."

I am inspired.

she spoke at
2:16 AM

Some people tell me that i perhaps am a tad too nice. Well...maybe. Sometimes, it gets mentally exhausting to be there all the time. Someone told me that i need to learn how to say NO. She said that i need time to myself as well. Perhaps this is a flaw that i have. I always shoulder on more than i can take. So responsibilities come into play more so than it is suppose to be. I dunno. Is that so? Do people always say YES because they are afraid of disappointing others? People pleasers? It's sad that sometimes, things seem to get out of hand as you try too hard. I get tired too.

There are also times where actions get misread and misinterpreted for something else. There is a chinese saying that goes something along this line. "The speaker says something and the reciver gives meaning to it." So there.

There are times where i wish that diaries can be totally open but unfortunately, there is always the risk of people trying to find out if you are actually pointing fingers at them. So there goes the hush hush issue again. But if you cannot be totally honest, it kinda defeats the purpose of having an online diary does it? Yet again, someone told me that an online diary is just an outlet for your friends to know what has been going on in your life. So here is a place for little snippets of mine.

*Update*
Went to Urban Escape yesterday. Thanx to Noel, we manage to be part of it. Reason? Well...HL's friend couldn't make it cuz the darn army called him back. So we had to resort to calling Noel at 7.20am (FYI the race starts at 9.20am) to try our luck. Thankfully he made his way down. So thanx Noel! If he hadn't, it would have been my second failed attempt at trying to get into the race. Tried to form a team last year. Tho i managed to, we were past the registration date. So *sniffs*. Anyway, i thought the whole thing was quite fun. Esp the kayaking part. Tho HL said that i was complaining throughtout the entire thing that it was very 'shag'. Haha. But it was what! I think we were really slacking throughout the whole thing. And also cuz poor Kat was sick. I remember us trying to make her puke cuz it would apparantly make her feel better. But she didn't. Day ended with a free goodie bag and shirt. Not bad not bad. But i thought the whole thing was a tad too short.

I wanna take part in the Southern Island Expedition organised by Changi SSC. *sniffs* but Noel said it was expensive and that NUS's would cost lesser. And yeah...it's just a day after FOC. Wouldn't wanna 'shag out'. Haha. But still...

I am tired

she spoke at
6:46 PM

Notice that i am not partiularly excited bout this job. First, i am working with Triumph. Uh huh. Selling bras. And secondly, i got this job cuz i accompanied my auntie fot an interview there as a packer and the staff asked if i wanted to do sales. So yeah. I filled up the form. But how in the world would i know that they would employ me immediately? Damn. I know it's cool that i found a job. But i'm lamenting over the fact that i'd neglect Rovers. So i hereby declare this an "ANYTIME QUIT" job. *lol* Yes. If they are not happy with me taking so many off days, off i go. Ciao. I firmly believe that responsibilities comes before self. Meaning jobs and stuff like that. Tho mom's not very happy with my committments but even my auntie understands. So i don't give a rat's ass should they sack me. WAHAHA. I am evil. Well. Will be going off to Berkelah in about 3 hrs and i haven packed yet. Tata.

she spoke at
3:46 PM