A Perfected World

Sunday, May 30, 2004

There are times when i don't understand. There are times where u get angry with urself and pissed with everyone else. There is such a fine line between obligations and fighting for what u want. U can't freaking please everone. I get tired too. I am also human. I know it's for my own good. Or so they think. But i just wanna do what i wanna do. Why is that so hard?

I can't breathe.

she spoke at
4:51 PM

Saturday, May 29, 2004

"Part of what it means to love someone. To really love someone. If you love someone then you don't just see them as an extension of yourself. You don't just love them for what's in it for you...Love means knowing when to let go."
-Tony Parsons "Man and Boy"

This is probably one of the hardest thing anyone has to do. Imagine having to let go of someone u love. Damn. Many of us would have already fought so hard to get the one u love and how many of us are actually willing to give that up? Seriously. Ever asked urself that question? Love and lost. Someone once told me...if u love someone, let the person go cuz if he/she comes back to u, u'll have him/her forever. Izzit true? Somehow i'm led to think that people are always searching for greener pastures to graze. This happens even if the grass on their side is fresh enough. They say that 'curiousity kills the cat', so are we all guilty of that? As in growing wary of what seems so normal and steady that we are all so ready for an adventure out of our comfort zones, like kittens on a mission to discover new things in this world. Well...i have mentioned before that emotions running thru at this point of wandering away would undoubtedly, or most commonly be lust. "It is merely a lust of the blood and the permission of the will." Is it not? I think that we all have desires that our bodies can control, but unfortunately, our will is the one that gives consent to the crying of our desires. Sad but true. It aptly explains why so many marriages fall apart due to a moment of folly.

Yet another thing that bugs us all the time is death. Letting go of someone u love is also when that someone dies and u have to pick up where u halted and move on with live with a part of u missing. But it always has to be done the hard way. U can't sit and grieve forever can u? Which is why i always think that we humans have an immense amount of hidden strength. So many times we tell ourselves that we are not gonna get thru certain stuff but we always will...somehow.

In awe.

she spoke at
2:33 AM

This is official...i have just purchased my Linkin Park concert tickets. WOW. Was just watching MTV's $2 Bill just now cuz they were showing LP's concert and sadly, i kinda lament over the fact that i couldn't get the $150 ticket. I swear i would have if it wasn't for the lack of cash and *sigh* i dunno why. I would've paid any price to see them man. And to see them so close...breathing down my neck and so loud that my ears would explode anytime. Imagine. Sheesh. I hope it'll be a blast. It had better be. M suppose to call Lee Joo, who's all the way in Melbourne, to let her hear them sing live during the concert. It's such a pity she izzen back here. In fact, it's the last day of her exams. Poor thing huh? Well well...i hope that everyone will enjoy the concert!!! LP LP LP LP LP...Haha. M turning mad already.

Anticipation.

she spoke at
1:57 AM

Thursday, May 27, 2004

Wow. It's been so long since i wanted to do this and yupz...it's kinda exciting to finally have a blog to call ur own. So here's my virgin blog. Anyway, still trying to figuring how to do up this thing so yeah. Might take awhile. In the meantime, i shall be busying myself with another trek that's coming up next tues and more preparation for FOC. *stretches* Gotta get up early for Ubin recce tmr. *stoned* So shall keep this short n sweet. Just caught American Idol. WOW. Fantasia blew me away and Diana wasn't half bad. Damn. Good luck America. May the best voice win. But seriously, they are both friggin good!!! Kudos to that!!!

she spoke at
1:32 AM