Been home for almost a week now.
Foot's still swollen.
Sigh.
Yes i know.

Patience.

Books to Finish:
1) My Sister's Keeper
2) Ender's Game
3) Chocolat
4) I, Lucifer
5) Midnight Cowboy(3rd attempt)
6) Sandman Series
7) Earthsea
8) Seven Types of Ambiguity (2nd attempt)

And of course i aim to finish FMA which i am currently only like less than half done (16/50 something -_-)admist the world cup fever.

Speaking of which, the referee for the Aust vs Italy match really needs to get his eyes checked!!! N poor spain got trashed by the french this morning. TORRES!!! Bleh. Hope brazil beats the crap outta them and not pull a 1998. Tt'll be totally -_-

AND i can't believe they changed the ZERO DOLLAR Audio House ad!!!
*sniffs*
No more hald-time entertainment!!!
Urgh!!!
In case you people haven't noticed...
it has now been changed to HALF PRICE!!!
No more ZERO DOLLAR!!!
Lucky for a friend who already recorded it as a ringtone.
What a pity if he didn't manage to. Lol.

Thanks to all those who came to visit.
You guys are making it alot easier.
Trust me when i say that. ^^
Another visit tmr. Another great day!!!

Hope to be back in action soon.
In the meantime, its BOOKS, FOOD, FOOTIE, FMA and GREAT COMPANY!!!
Erm and yeah CLASSIFIEDS and JobDB.
Yay.

she spoke at
10:16 PM

Lets say u have 60 years of life.
Okie?
20 years of ur life is assigned to resting
and 40 years is assigned to working hard and studying hard
And of cos playing hard
If u are going to stress urself, and use up everything in 40 years
U are going to be useless, LITERALLY at the age of 40
And u will be FORCED to assign 20 years to resting AT THE AGE OF 40

IF

u accept all these, being FATE, take ur time, rest, play, work
u are going to last till 60!
So, do u wan to be useless literally at the age of 40
and be wheelchair bound or bed-ridden at the age of 40
40 is very fast u know
its only 18 more years

if u take another 5 years to get married and hav a kid
u're not going to be able to go shopping with ur kid when he/she is 15 u know
so
since u HAVE to stay home n rest these few days
before complaing wasting time on bed
and not outside flying
take the time to do something u always wanted to do

Sit on ur bed, read all the books u wanted to read
watch all the shows u wanted to watch
ENJOY being alone at home doing ur own things
without feeling obliged to go anywhere with anyone

When u're home u complain u can't do anything
When u're too busy outside, u complain not being able to do anything at home

U are NOT stuck in bed
U are taking some time off
from frens and polo
to have some quality time with urself

ok
so now
go read ur book
watch ur show
enjoy lazing with kim tmr
and recover well

Before u know it, u'll be flying again

Thank you.
*hugs*

she spoke at
12:32 AM

I woke up this morning.
On the wrong side of the bed.

she spoke at
11:23 AM

she spoke at
11:44 PM

Maybe i talk a little less,
smile a little less.
So every now and then,
someone will come up and ask.
"You ok?"
It's strange.
The courage to say "no" never gets any closer,
than a mere flash of thought.
You're about to purge.
You can almost taste the vile bitterness.
But then you swallow it like a leaded plate.
You fake a smile.
The best you've got.
And say, just like you have a million times before.
Too familiar.
"Yeah i am."

Damn.

Sometimes you get that awful feeling.
But you stop the tear before it reaches the eye.
You occupy yourself with the world's mundane.
Because it is easier than doing anything else.
You live in a lie because you told it so well.
And there really isn't a need not to lie anymore.

"i know there’s little use in crying
it’s more wide awake and dying then i’m used to "

Nothing ever leaves us.
A faded picture a minute,
Clear as glass the next.
We never forget.
We simply can't remember.
Isn't it ironic?
That the memory is such a volatile permanance.

"I was alive from the first now i’m denied by the ghost of you"

They say "Silence is Golden"
But why doesn't it feel good?
When she smiles i'm smiling too.
So why doesn't it feel right?

"you take yourself a photograph and laugh at me please"

Kim's right.
Blogs cannot grant you the release you need because what you want to pen is often not what you should pen or would pen.
Too much to lose.
Too many at stake.
The greatest victim.
YOU.
Misreadings, misunderstandings, miscommunication, misinterpretation.
How many mis-ses do you need to right a wrong?

Fire.
An element unbound.
A fury contained.
Ever hear of a backdraft?

Don't try holding fire in. You can only last that long.

Song of the Day: "Ghost" by Howie Day
World Cup Predictions:
Brazil 3 Australia 2 (wahaha!)
France 1 South Korea 1 (viva le Asia)

she spoke at
11:06 PM

"If you focus on sandbagging the beachhead, you can ignore the tsunami that's approaching. Try it any other way and you'll go crazy."

~My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult~

Is it really?
A good read nonetheless.
(thanks kim for spoiling the ending. lol. kidding kidding.)

Sometimes you wonder
if there is such a thing as the right or wrong thing to do.
When something is done with strong enough a conviction
Wouldn't it seem right then?
The catch here...
Seem.

The hardest thing is trying not to waver.

And at times you think that you can and you have.
But in actuality you're simply just not thinking it.
What is known to us as fear is not on the mere surface.
It runs alot deeper than that.
It is embedded, entrenched
and embelish by our darkest demons.

Just thinking.

A good friend once told me that i seek freedom through constant motion,
in a poem he wrote me amongst the many.
"Portrait of a Wildflower" he named one.
No one could've had me better described.
Sadly all his beautiful words were erased because i lost my phone.
A memory where i stored everything that i don't think will ever be replaced.
One that doesn't fail like this one (points to head) does.

A little update.
The Omen wasn't half bad.
Maybe it was bacause i didn't have to pay.
Ha.
Alright i'm a cheapskate, so sue me.
But in all honesty,
the company was worth much more than that.
Heh.

Still on the job hunt.
I need to find me a new direction.

she spoke at
2:47 AM

Every 4 years, there comes an event that render people sleepless.
And it's here once again!!!
World class football!!! WOOT!!!

Tonight's highlights:
1) Korea Republic vs. Togo - 21:00
2) France vs. Switzerland - 00:00
3) Brazil vs. Croatia (yay!) - 03:00

Speaking of highlights. Imagine 2 crazee ladies screaming their lungs out when the roos down under score 3 goals in 8 mins to secure a 3-1 win against Japan!!! That was my mom and i. Lol. Tho i was a Japan supporter, the roos really did deserve the win. Ha. Mom started to call me a "mai guo zei" (triator in chinese). WAAADDD??? *sheepish smile*

N boy can the Czechs play beautiful football. (we must be able to pass with such pinpoint accuracy too!!! Couldn't stop thinking about cpolo while watching the matches!!! Ganbatte guys!!! IVP!!!) The match was FANTABULOUS.



Tomas Rosicky!!! And of course here's the OH SO CUTE KEEPER Petr Chec!!!



Ole ole ole.

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2:28 PM

she spoke at
12:21 AM

I've been down and I'm wondering why
These little black clouds keep walking around with me,
with me
Waste time and I'd rather be high
Think I'll walk me outside and buy a rainbow smile
but be free, be all free
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

I look around at a beautifiul life
I been the upper side of downbeen the inside of out
but we breathe, we breathe

I wanna a breeze in an open mind
I wanna swim in the ocean
Wanna take my time for me, all free

So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

Great song.
Heart the STEREOPHONICS.
Have an insane urge to go grab all of their albums!

The weekend went on by.
With a 1st FAILED attempt to climb LUMBONG.
All because the damn waterfall has been commercialized and you now need to apply for a permit in JB just to climb it. *mutters under breath* So since all of us were already ALL the way at kota tinggi resort (yes ailina i finally know what you are talking about and yes there is indeed a waterfall there, quite pretty i might add), we might as well stay the night. So there. It was a night of endless pigging out and 10 hours of zzz!!! Woot!!!

On the bright side, dad subscribed to the SCV world cup channels!!!
Hurray!!!
To think i was about to fork out cash just to do it myself.
And England vs Paraguay was SO disappointing.
Can't believe England won just cuz Paraguay shot an "own goal" (header apparantly).
Anyway GO BRAZIL!!! (which according to some won't win cuz too many people are expecting them to win...crazy logic but who knows...might be true...)

Yeah. Caught X3 as well.
Lol.
Have been calling Ailina Jun Black (Jean Grey) non-stop since.
This was after i realized that Jun sounds like Jean.
And since Ailina likes black...there goes.
Wahaha. Not funny right? *sad*
X3 wasn't as nice as X1 and X2. FIRST did a pretty good review.
So go read. Saves me the hassle of having to explain. Ha.

Gonna be going for an interview tmr.
For Nikken Corporation. (www.nikken.com.sg)
But NO WORRIES m not applying for the MLM consultant.
Lol.
Hmmm.
Looks like alot of old people work there.
We'll see.

Marc: If you're reading this...my phoneline will only resume tmr. N i read your msg too late. So yup. Was already gg to Msia. Movie will have to wait till i can contact you again. And no one else can get the loan so i guess it's ok.
Sweet/Kim: *hugs*

Listless.

she spoke at
12:26 AM

I heart youtube. ^^

Jenny's gf this season is SO DAMN BLOODY ANDRO!!!
Person on left = GIRL!!!
Impressive.
Wish i looked like that.
Yup kim...being THAT enigmatic is fab!!!



The Naughty Song by Cory Lee.
Ab Fab!!! *rrrrrrrrrrrr* Frisky.

Gotta get you out of my mind
Gotta get you into my life

I know that your down
but the way you watchin' me
Your takin' words away and
I can hardly speak
There's just room for two
in my fantasy
So baby lose your crew
and come away with me

Turn down the lights and light up the party
I got the ride and you got the naughty
Leave your boys and your girls tonight
come home to me ASAP
Turn down the lights and light up the party
I got the time and you got the body
Leave your boys and your girls tonight
come home to me ASAP

Tonight's the night
and it's only just begun
All the boys and the girls that wanna f*** tonight
gotta turn the naughty on (x2)

I like what you say
by the way you rock your shows
and the way you wear your smile
got me really diggin you
Oh, this bump and grind
makes everyone afraid
let's get out of sightbaby run away with me

Current status:
1) Still looking for a job.
2) Dad indirectly said no to the tattoo.
3) But Mom didn't oppose.
4) Kicking people out of ESC.
5) Burnt and Bruised.
6) Hooked onto youtube and Harry Potter.
7) Training training training (last competition!!!)
8) Broke

Life is.

she spoke at
1:46 AM