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Saturday, October 30, 2004

Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

*This is quite an old song. But stumbled upon it awhile ago and well...here's the inspirational lyrics!!! So many things reeks truth eh? So people. Go get that bottle of sunscreen!!! Sunday's match is just a day away!!! Getting to see all the national players strut their stuff...err skills!!! Haha. Whoa.

3 more essays to go.
Damn damn damn.


she spoke at
4:59 AM

Thursday, October 28, 2004



This is my dream.

I just realise that there are so so so so so so so so many things to buy for the Kilimanjaro trek. Wow. Such an expensive dream. Let's see. Sleeping bag, trekking poles, trekking boots, sunglasses (nice nice orange shades from Oakley or wherever else), lotsa clothings!!! And a damn chio ARCTERYX jacket. HL (vain...hehe)!!! I want!!! But it cost about 200 plus. The equipment and preparation itself is gonna cost at least 1k. And the trip another 3k. Whoa. So far only HL and i seem very ons about it. What about my 'expedition KILIMANJARO' team mates??? *sniffs* well it is ex lah. So m not gonna say anything liaoz!!! Ok enough blabber huh. Ooh...got a very nice red bottle from Camper's Corner. Yay! N had a free lunch at California Pizza Kitchen today. Everyone!!! Try the Peking duck pizza. It is good. *drools*

URGH!!! I am having my period!!! WTF. And there's an initiation match against the seniors this sunday. *gulps* I am scared that i will lose my fingers in trying to keep the balls from the senior team. Esp from a few you-know-whos. Haha. And ppl...wish our team loadsa luck!!! For this and KL regatta (3-5th Dec) Yes yes...we are gonna be playin against Malaysians!!! And in a pond. Haha.

Anyways...had lunch with Ailina the other day and that was the day that i had 2 hrs of zzz. Was abit high. Haha. Her collegue said i don't look like boy don't look like girl. Damn. Haha. And a very WOLS mosquito bit me the other day! So funny. It was so WOLS...all i need to do was to rub it dead. Ooh. Sounds sick. Heh. Guess i wasn't the only one lack of zzz. Sigh exams are coming soon and i am suppose to be doin my essay now. Haha. Naughty naughty.

Had a VERY strange dream yst.
(...i was gg out with someone...BUT not a guy! ^o^ *scratches head*)

Life just is.

she spoke at
1:38 AM

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Sigh. It's the projects and exam period again. So many frikking things to do. So little bloody time. Ok. So i do have bad time management skills. But what the heck. This is so stifling. So for everyone i haven't been in contact with. I apologize.



Oh anyway. In case anyone's wondering who that cutie is. He's Jesse McCartney. Never heard of him? Neither have i. And no i did not surf the net aimlessly for pretty boys. Haha. Alright. I discovered him thru MTV (yeah!) Uh huh. Fell in love with the song "Beautiful Soul". Ok. So it's pop. And he sounds like a cross between an older aaron carter (who's also cute!)- with more spunk and vocals. But who the hell cares? It's a nice song k! And yes...so he's 17. And yes yes. I hear some people mumbling about my obbession over pretty boys...err (young) pretty boys? Haha. Hey! I am not a paedophile k! I am not. Why am i defending myself i wonder?

Anyways...think that he's pretty darn cute. Blond and green eyes? Maybe that why. Haha. No harm done in *drooling* ya? That's what beauty is for ainnit? It's meant to be admired. Well...back to work now. Bleh!

My neck STILL hurts!!!
Ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch
F*** f*** f*** f*** f***
Bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh

she spoke at
2:40 AM

Friday, October 15, 2004

And i would believe that there really isn't.

A few days back...this cat was loitering around at our house gate (*for those of u guys who know the story, this was the day that my dad got into 4 near death accidents - including one where he nearly fell of The Gallery hotel, 10 over storeys headfirst) and it was really damn fierce. Strangely, when we tried to chase it away, it scowled at us. So naturally, being the superstitious ppl we all are in dealing with the unexplained (and the 4 near death accidents) we took it as a BAD omen. (yeah u got it right...spirits and stuff)

But then today...
Gas stove didn't work
Dad went out to check if the main gas switch outside the house was faulty.
It was switched off (which explains alot...but who or what did it?)
He had a gut feeling that there were something at the bottom of the cupboard outside.
Took a drill and removed the bottom wooden plank.
Found 3 CUTEST THINGS!!!
Kittens.
Turns out that momma cat was actually looking for her kids.
Aww.

So there...if gas stove didn't stop working (still have no idea how the main switch was turned off...momma cat? *scratches head*), dad wouldn't have checked the cupboard, kittens would've died.

Yes indeed. Nothing is coincidental because everything happens for a reason.

And the kittens are so so so so so so so adorable. Poor things. If momma cat doesn't come reclaim them, we might have to take them in!!! A white one and two gray ones. Cuteness!!!

Had a crazy afternoon today.
And it was fun fun fun.
Thanx for ending the week with such a blast!

3 lives were saved today!!! ^_^

she spoke at
9:59 PM

Monday, October 11, 2004



I LOVE THIS SHIRT!!! *lol* But i figure that it is TOTALLY not worth it. Shall go to Thailand or hopefully Singapore to get it. Wahaha. Happy Tree Friends ROCK!!! It's violently hillarious!!!

For everyone else who have been missing out on a great cartoon series. Here's the link. http://www.happytreefriends.com

Rated: CV (cartoon violence)
You have been readily warned...watch at own risk.

I am such a sadist.

she spoke at
1:41 AM


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This is specially dedicated to kimballz...Haha. After what she said today after training when we found out that she wanted to do political science "i wanted to be president you know" was it not? Haha. Enjoy! *sticks out tongue*

To everyone in CP. (Haha. Tho i dun think that many visit this place!) You guys rock! Esp the junior team!!! *big hugs* Just realise that it is so much fun to have you guys ard. And LIZARD!!! I could've pinned you down if i tried harder n if you weren't moving ard so much! Bleh!

*counts silently* 2 more months to the holz...2 more months to the holz...2 more months to the holz (notice the intentional skip past the exams ^o^ hohoho)

Still down with a stiff neck. (even after XN's massage! *sniffs*)
Worries about 'temporary neck immobility.' Darn it!
In a good mood tho.
For some strange reason.
Ouch.
Neck hurts!!!

she spoke at
1:25 AM

Sunday, October 10, 2004

"Happiness comes in moments and it's gone until the next time. But sadness - sadness settles in."

Ever wondered why the saddest things bugs us the most? And happiness are usually momentary? Well...of course there can be happy memories that makes you smile. But the sad stuff affects you so much so that you cannot get on with life. It happens. Shit happens. But all that saying don't make life any easy nor better. Sadness is a war we have to win over. It's a tough one to fight against.

So what? Take sadness in your stride? Then take it as a neccessity for one to be able to feel happy. For without sadness, we will not know the meaning of happiness.

I believe that everything happens for a reason.
I believe that love is worth fighting for.
I believe that letting go is never easy.
But.
I believe that we are stonger than we think we are.

I am down with a stiff neck.

she spoke at
2:31 AM

Friday, October 08, 2004

A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it for the first time, virtues and vices floated around and were bored, not knowing what to do. One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered together and were more bored than ever. Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: "Let's play hide and seek!" All of them liked the idea and immediately Madness shouted: "I want to count, I want to count!" And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek Madness, all the others agreed.

Madness leaned against a tree and started to count: "One, two, three..." As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding. Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon, Treason hid in a pile of garbage. Fondness curled up between the clouds and Passion went to the centre of the earth. Lie said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake, whilst Avarice entered a sack that he ended up breaking.

And Madness continued to count: "...seventy nine, eighty, eighty one…" By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden? Except Love. For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where to hide. And this should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide Love. Madness: "...ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven..." Just when Madness got to one hundred, Love jumped into a rose bush where he hid.

And Madness turned around and shouted: "I'm coming, I'm coming!" As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found, because Laziness had no energy to hide. Then he spotted Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of the lake and Passion at the center of the earth. One by one, Madness found them all except Love.

Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love. Envious of Love, Envy whispered to Madness: "You only need to find Love, and Love is hiding in the rose bush." Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rose bush. Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop. Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his face with his hands. Between his fingers ran two trickles of blood from his eyes. Madness, so anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love's eyes with a pitch fork.

"What have I done! What have I done!" Madness shouted. "I have left you blind! How can I repair it?" And Love answered: "You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do something for me, you can be my guide."

And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness.

Such a sad sad story of why 'love is blind' huh?

Sad for love and madness.

she spoke at
4:51 AM

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

When was the last time you did something for the first time?

Guess what? Today, something was done to me for the first time in my 20 years of life! Err...what are you all thinking? Heh. A bird shat on me! *sniffs* Fortunately it wasn't on my head or worse still, face. Thankfully it landed on my arm. *phew* But it was damn gross anyway. Such a lucky day ain't it? Must be all the bad vibes i am getting from all the unfinished projects and assignments. Sheri was saying that no one is to blame cuz i had like a few weeks to complete it. But hey! Everyone of us are guilty of procrastination right? Who's so saintly not to? Heh. Excuses i know. But at least i'm getting started. Almost at my 3rd page now. Yes. For the bloody research paper.

Anyway...i think it was written somewhere that the probability of being hit by birdshit is very low. So if you do get hit, you are one lucky dude/dudette. *sniffles* Yeah. One of my friend got hit twice already. Come. Let us all tally the birdshit hits!!!

Sheri and Ailina are coming over to stay today. Kinda loaning my room lah. Sigh. Of all days where i have to mug for the almost *looks at time* dued papers. Not to mention the unprepared debate which is also tmr. Lucky us. We were the group picked to do the debate. Bleh! What luck huh? Maybe dad or mom will strike 4D/Toto or something.

I am sian.

she spoke at
7:59 PM

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

He who binds to himself a joy,
Doth the winged life destroy
But he who kisses the joy as it flies,
Lives in Eternity's sunrise


Can't really recall who said this. But i think it's pretty darn true. But such a simple thing like that is hard to do right? All of us are selfish and all of us want to hold on to something. Sometimes so bad. *nods* It takes quite alot to learn i guess. Unless you are the kind who don't subject yourself to any sorts of emotional attachments. If you ask me...it's not easy not to be subjected.

Somehow this entry tallied with what i read from this dark zodiac book. A somewhat interesting read. Illustrates and analyses all your negative traits and stuff. ^_^ Anyway, i flipped thru mine and mmm...*nods* quite accurate. And guess what they said about the love life? Hehe. No prizes for getting it right. One sentence: "Don't fence me up" Cool huh? Kinda matches the mini poem at the top. *winks*

Anyways m struggling with the bloody SC2101 essay. Statistical data analysis. What the F*** man. Please do not do not do not take this module. Unless of course you are an unfortunate socio major/shared major like myself. *sniffs* What horrendous torture. My poor...no no...*thinks of fellow friends suffering the same fate* OUR poor poor tortured souls. Even bullshitting skills can't help much. But i'm gonna give it a go anyway. What's to lose right? Okie...15% of my CA is at stake but darn. What the heck! Just whack! Sigh. N i skipped training today. Can't wait for thurs tho. Yay! Competition's in Jan. At least something to look forward to.

I HATE SPSS.

she spoke at
11:59 PM

Monday, October 04, 2004

Too often we are scared.
Scared of what we might not be able to do.
Scared of what people might think if we tried.
We let our fears stand in the way of our hopes.
We say no when we want to say yes.
We sit quietly when we want to scream.
And we shout with the others,
when we should keep our mouths shut.
Why?
After all,
we do only go around once.
There's really no time to be afraid.
So stop.
Try something you've never tried.
Risk it.
Enter a triathlon.
Write a letter to the editor.
Demand a raise.
Call winners at the toughest court.
Throw away your television.
Bicycle across the United States.
Try bobsledding.
Try anything.
Speak out against the designated hitter.
Travel to a country where you don't speak the language.
Patent something.
Call her.
You have nothing to lose
and everything
everything
everything to gain.
JUST DO IT.

~Barry Sanders "Running Back" (Detriot)~

Something i got from this website of Nike quotes and ads. Really meaningful stuff they have there. *smiles* So peepz, what are we waiting for? There is so much latent courage in us that we have yet to uncover. Whatever we do, remember that we only live once. So live it well. Live it like there is no tomorrow and live like there was no yesterday. Live in the present and relish all that surrounds you. For that is what truly matters. Life is sometimes better unplanned because the smallest surprises can bring the biggest smiles to ur face. The bottom line: Just Do It.

she spoke at
12:56 AM

Saturday, October 02, 2004

"Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end."

Because...

"What is meant to be will always find a way."


Hmm...20 years of being in *ESC (*Those who don't already know, ESC = Exclusive Singles Club. For people who are exclusively single, that is not attached and have never been. Heh.) teaches you quite alot of things. Is love really not about the search for that right person? But yet again, how do you define the right person? It's not really definitive right?

Personally, i would go by the vibe, whether you have a feeling for that person. But sadly, my vibes sometimes fail me as well. What i thought was something actually turned out to be something else altogether. Sometimes i ain't even sure what i am feeling towards some people.

So if love is about creating the right relationship, does this mean that everyone stand a chance to building that relationship with you? *shudder* Then what are the possiblities that the wrong vibes might get sent out and *sigh* both parties get hurt in the process? Love is such a strange thing.

But i do agree for one that what matters is not how much love you start off with but how much love you can built in the end. Love is such a powerful thing. It makes people do the silliest things, even if it means being at the brink of damaging one's own body. Not quite sure if that quite fits the profile but i guess some people are just so eager to get the attention and acceptance by the one person they love so dearly. So much so that they are blinded to those who really care and have already willingly accepted them for who they are. Why are they so blinded? Why can't they see that they are being loved? Not neccessarily by the one they so seek affection from? I can give you the same. Even more. What is the point of seeking something that is not worthy of doing so? Maybe i will never understand the intensity of it all.

Do i really send out lesbo vibes? Haha. It's so funny that so many people are questioning my sexuality. There are always people telling me they thing i am not straight and yada yada. Well people...i am just me. Haha. Greg even suggested that i should get a boyfriend to fend off any rumours. Not that i bother lah. Haha Just curious to know why. There. Nuff said.

Suppose to be doing my socio research paper. Bloody f*** man. Dunno how to do. And suppose to go to bedok to eat ba chor mee. But parents are still zzzin. *sniffles* Ended up doodling. Boy i miss doin my anime drawings. Hehe. Did one of myself. An anime version. Ooh...nice. Haha shamelessly praising self. Anyway i got back my handroll!!! Woo hoo!!! Lizard...please be nice and don't anyhow cap me lah. Heh.

In a good mood. For some reason.

she spoke at
8:56 PM