It took a few moments of hesitation before i finally decided to post this up. Well...for those of you who would find it nauseating, go ahead and puke your guts out. As for those who liked it, very much appreciated. This lil story is of no factual basis. Just something that i weaved sometime back. So for better or for worse, here goes nothing.
"Of broken wings and jaded hearts. Of crumbling ashes and darkened days. You came. Like the blooming of a flower and the breaking of dawn. The search was over. In fact, it never began. You were always there. It was desire that burned me, curiousity that blinded me. I never saw you. I started listening with my heart and not my ears. I began to see with my soul and not my eyes. That was how i found you.
It all began an innocent friendship. A relationship that took off into full bloom. A love of a lifetime. It wasn't easy. Enormous perils. But hope prevailed for faith never ceases. All it took was for me to believe that love conquered all. That where love is concerned, gender is accidental.
I didn't see you as you for i looked beyond the skin. That was where i unraveled the mystery, saw the meaning of love, the roaring of emotions, the silence of beauty and the awe of perfection.
But life was not a bed of roses nor sweet smelling air. It was vicious. It was crude. Apathy was pervasive and cruelty stark. The foul air was maddening and resentment undying. The constant mockery and the roving eyes admist the peircing screams of blasphemy. They all came crashing, with no warning nor sign. Stifled. Breathless. Appalled. I was digusted at the narrowness of the mind and closeness of the heart. The absence of compassion or the notion of embrace. Who were they to judge? But the pressure was immense. Society is perverse with rules made to follow. We soon will fall into the fallacy of conforming. How do i know this? Because everything is eventual.
Our love grew bleak as the storm brewed in strength. Anxiety clouded my mind as fear clutched my heart. So many pointless puruits and unfufilled desires. Broken hearts and unwoven dreams. We had it all. Almost. Close. But there you left me to stand alone. To be dumped into the mallicious ocean of solitude and agony.
I thought you were different but you are all the same. Shameful, petrified, unwilling to embrace. There was a chance, an opportunity, a life. But you threw it away. Not yours. Mine.
Ever time i shut my eyes, you were there. But dreams were illusions and reality delusions. Reality was blurred and the delusions were real. I wanted to believe what i couldn't see but what i saw blinded me. Fear was the peremptory advocate of the restricted self. You fell. But i am still here.
Those were the days of the bittersweet, the future yet unknown. In hopes to find another like you, i tried. But much to no prevail. Your love was like the heavens' gate, forbidden yet enticing. But the gates stayed shut and i never could pry even till the day i took my last.
I saw you once again somehow. Like the blooming of a flower and the breaking of dawn."
