Some people tell me that i perhaps am a tad too nice. Well...maybe. Sometimes, it gets mentally exhausting to be there all the time. Someone told me that i need to learn how to say NO. She said that i need time to myself as well. Perhaps this is a flaw that i have. I always shoulder on more than i can take. So responsibilities come into play more so than it is suppose to be. I dunno. Is that so? Do people always say YES because they are afraid of disappointing others? People pleasers? It's sad that sometimes, things seem to get out of hand as you try too hard. I get tired too.
There are also times where actions get misread and misinterpreted for something else. There is a chinese saying that goes something along this line. "The speaker says something and the reciver gives meaning to it." So there.
There are times where i wish that diaries can be totally open but unfortunately, there is always the risk of people trying to find out if you are actually pointing fingers at them. So there goes the hush hush issue again. But if you cannot be totally honest, it kinda defeats the purpose of having an online diary does it? Yet again, someone told me that an online diary is just an outlet for your friends to know what has been going on in your life. So here is a place for little snippets of mine.
*Update*
Went to Urban Escape yesterday. Thanx to Noel, we manage to be part of it. Reason? Well...HL's friend couldn't make it cuz the darn army called him back. So we had to resort to calling Noel at 7.20am (FYI the race starts at 9.20am) to try our luck. Thankfully he made his way down. So thanx Noel! If he hadn't, it would have been my second failed attempt at trying to get into the race. Tried to form a team last year. Tho i managed to, we were past the registration date. So *sniffs*. Anyway, i thought the whole thing was quite fun. Esp the kayaking part. Tho HL said that i was complaining throughtout the entire thing that it was very 'shag'. Haha. But it was what! I think we were really slacking throughout the whole thing. And also cuz poor Kat was sick. I remember us trying to make her puke cuz it would apparantly make her feel better. But she didn't. Day ended with a free goodie bag and shirt. Not bad not bad. But i thought the whole thing was a tad too short.
I wanna take part in the Southern Island Expedition organised by Changi SSC. *sniffs* but Noel said it was expensive and that NUS's would cost lesser. And yeah...it's just a day after FOC. Wouldn't wanna 'shag out'. Haha. But still...
I am tired
