In truth, there is only emptiness.
The world, it's myriad beings,
dimension and times is like a dream.
When you are experiencing a dream,
it seems very real.
But upon awakening, you realize
that what seemed real and substantial
while you were dreaming actually has no substance at all.
Your dream disappears upon waking.
Emptiness implies absence.
Not the absence of reality,
But the absence of illusions.
Just got these two excerpts out from this book that i once read "Snowboarding to Nirvana" and the "Dao de jing". Hmm...it appears that we are only truly enlightened in emptiness, where emotions and worldly complications do not exist, only inner peace. One wonders where in the world that place is or will be found. Does it even exist?
All 5 components of individuality - Forms, sensation, perception, psychic dispositions and conciousness are suffering
~Noble truth of suffering~
I know for one that in Buddhism or in some other religions as well, what we are experiencing on Earth is purely physical and physicality is temporary. What matters in the soul that we would take with us after our period of suffering has ended here. I wonder again. Is this true? Seriously speaking, the 5 above mentioned does really attributes to why alot of us are so miserable. But yet again, it is also the same 5 things that enables us to enjoy the blessings of happiness and love, just to name a few.
It strange how one can feel so lost and empty sometimes. In the past week, i feel as if somethings missing. Maybe it started after AGM, when i no longer belonged. To a place that i held so dear to my heart. Come to think of it, maybe it wasn't the place i was attached to but the people i met along the way. I have to admit that it got me through my first year in NUS and whatever i had gone through did change me as a person. It was what we did that binded me in the first place, the bliss of being one with nature. The feeling that nothing else can quite come close.
At the end of my heartfelt journey, i think it's about time that i look back with a smile instead of feeling lost without a place to belong. Because i will still be around and i guess you will never be able to deter yourself from what you love. And there is still a promise to myself i have to keep. Kilimanjaro. A distant dream but in a very near future. I desperately need to regain my focus. Sometimes i just feel like shutting out. But i know for sure that it would not serve to make things better. Maybe i just need time alone. To breathe. To get inspired. Yet again, i know that you will always be there. Thank you. The world will not slow down for me, but i will eventually have to slow down for the world. But in the meantime...
Don't stop me from flying.
