Gruesome - Been sick the past week
Unwise - Had the wisdom tooth yanked out last week.
Weightloss - Yup. As a result of the above 2
Lifeless - You bet!

Where is my light? My spark? My fire?
If i don't find you soon...
I swear i'll send out a search party!

On another note, reading "Sputnik Sweetheart" (yes by Murakami)
evoked a strange sense of nostalgia.
A classmate of mine who left us earlier this year had this very book
sitting in her, for the lack of a better word, casket.
You wonder as you skim through each line, each word, each emotion,
why they placed it in there along with her lifelessness.
That book. It must have meant alot.

Unfortunately, i couldn't quite grasp it all.
Perhaps a second read would help me understand.

All i know is...

"On the outside, nothing will be different.
But something inside has burned up and vanished.
Blood has been shed, and something inside me is gone.
Face turned down, without a word, that something makes it's exit.
The door opens; the door shuts. The light goes out.
This is the last day for the person i am right now.
The very last twilight.
When dawn comes, the person i am won't be here anymore.
Someone else will occupy this body.

Why do people have to be this lonely? What's the point of it all?
Millions of people in this world, all of them yearning, looking to
others to satisfy them, yet isolating themselves. Why?
Was the Earth put here just to nourish human loneliness?

Lonely metal souls in the unimpeded darkness of space,
they meet, pass each other, and part, never to meet again.
No words passing between them. No promises to keep."

~"Sputnik Sweetheart~

Now that really hit me.

she spoke at
1:26 PM